The Naked Truth

It's really true tat absence made the heart fonder... At least this can be applied in friendship ( i just realized tat recently)...

Recently the whole part time and future full time job is driving me nuts... With little income and being manipulated, life isnt happy at all...

Jem and me met tai today as he wanted to get a gift for his ger's bdae... He saw us and after awhile he said:"how come both of u look so stress,shag and unhappy." That's when i finally realized how to describe myself... I seems to have lost my pretty cheerful and noisy self... I admit these few weeks have been really unpleasent for me and jem...

Nowadays everyday i see him i have little to talk wif him... Both of us always quiet... Actually part of the reason is me... I always put on a black face when he is late... Everytime i asked to meet him at one time, he will definetly be late for about 20 mins... I'm really pissed off by tat as this dun happen only for one time... PLus the fact tat i have to face him almost everyday made it even harder to really talk wif him...

After some thinking of coz i find tat partly it's my fault since he has a problem wif his slping timings... Hai... PLus the fact tat wif little income and uncertain future, everything adds up to a huge FUCKING DEMORALIZED... ZZZ...

THink this is one of the lowest point in my life... But of coz there will always be sunshine after a heavy rain... I must continue to move forward...

Need to thank tai abit la coz i became myself when i met him.. Talk cock and kao bei... Haha... Long time din have this happy feeling already... Real long... ANyway on a lighter note, i'm glad to see him settling well wif his ger and work... At least i see someone happier than me... Lol...

Labels: Rain that never seems to stop...

It had been such a while since i had a sweet dream... I dreamt of a new her and of coz we are also in a relatioship... Except she had longer hair... Haha... Think too much??? I guessed so...

Early in the morning while i'm still sleeping my dad ran into my room and shuted "i've won $10k"... i jumped out of my bed and see what he meant... He bought scratch tix and there's 2 10k amount... I laughed and told him that he needs 3 and not 2 la... He also felt that it was funny and laugh about it too... Lol... Din see him so happy before still jump and shout...

Hmmm i just passed my first paper (M5) on my first attempt... Proud to see that too coz 75% seems abit far at times... During secondary or poly times i only aim for pass so sometimes i find it impossible to reach the 75% mark...

SIA interview tml... Struggling now... Dunno to go or not to go for it since my first paper passed already... Dunno whether there's complication or not too... God give me some hints on whether to go tml or not...

Labels: 1st stage clear...

Finally after letting spiders spin their webs around me for the past 40+ days, i finally cleared up their webs and moved on to start work again... Lol... this is such a difficult step to step out of coz i have been in my comfort zone for far too long already...


As expected, the start of something umfamiliar is always so so difficult... Started my first call at around 3pm... Last call at 8.30pm... Surprisingly i made 143 calls and only 35 pick up and answer... Abit sadden la... Anyway just a beginning and i expect myself to improve as days pass...

At the end of the day i found tat i'm doing something which isnt me... Need to build rapport with the "potential" customers (which wont even be my cust) when i'm such a quiet kid... Lol... So i guess after learning and improvin myself, i will be able to build rapport with almost anyone and also i will handle rejections better...

Brighter days ahead... Smile...

Labels: First day at work...