The Naked Truth

For the past 1-2 weeks although it has been short but it's damn hectic...

Thursday duty was the worst i can have... I was really busy from 7 plus am till nite time around 11pm... First the coc parade was really bad enough... Nearly signed extras for that... Luckily RSM din see tat coming... Phew... After that csscom came for a spot check... They came around 5 and went off around 11.30... Zzz... But luckily nothing big happened...

Friday was a force off/leave day... Met James, Lester and Chicken little to shop for Staff's bdae present... A tired day for me coz i did not have my duty rest... Went out straight after i got home...

Saturday we went to Staff's chalet although it was only for awhile... Was having flu after that and i lied at my bed for many many hours wif a bad bad mood...

Think it was last week when i picked up $20 (most i ever picked up)... I went to bet on soccer and 4D and in the end i won $19.50... Meaning i lost 50 cents from the $20 i picked up... Damn lucky man... Lol...

I nearly won 4D yesterday and today... Damn!!!... Yesterday it opened 2703 while i bought 2303... Today it opened 1516 and i boought 2526... What the hell!!!!!!!

Oh guess what Fiona Xie's fans... I saw Fiona Xie at far east on friday while shopping for staff's present... She looked better than how she looked on tv man... Hehe... Stop drooling everyone...

Highlight was of coz TODAY!!! We met up for a simple and short lunch in town... Of coz i do have some mixed feelings when i met her... Felt abit strange and uncomfortable... But after a short while everything is back to normal... It's really gud to meet her finally... We had some short contact (arms touching arms) and i really missed that kind of feel... Although it was short but it was really sweet and i really yearn for more like in the past...

Hmmm... I dunno what to say... Guess it's becoz i missed the past and her... I might have changed too... Arghh!!!! Tml gonna perform my last duty for this month... Haha... Gonna turn in soon or else tml cannot take it... Hopefully i'll (and xiao ting) stay lucky and happy for many more months to come... Haha learnt to be selfish :>

Labels: Feeling lucky...

The probihition period is finally over... Initially it was going fine but as days passed, things started to get back to normal again...

I felt that she got too much to think about and too much burden for a girl who is still adapting to working life... Work, study and relationship... Of coz i knew rite from the start that her priority isnt relationship... Of coz i understand that she needs to work so she wont have much time to meet up with me... All these i dont mind seriously...

I just pity her that she is really havin a tough time rite now... People might say why dont i stay and support her??? Yes i did... But what i recieve back is disappointment... Time and time again... So i guess i have learnt to be selfish abit or else i wont be happy too...

I dunno whether i will regret my decision or not and i'm really feeling very sad... I cant bear to let her go... This is a really funny feeling... Initially you are filled up with decisions to break up but the after effect is that you really cant bear to let it go... It's really like asking a smoker to quit smoking... Tat difficult... I tried not to msg her but i still did... No reply yet though...

Hai... See what happens for the next few days man... Anyway i kept the last two msg from her and me... I told her it's better for us to be friends coz i really hate to see her so stress up and busy...

Pea 16:01 - Actually its up to ur decision.. I dun wan burden u too. Dun wan be selfish too. U decide.

Zen 16:02 - Ok.. Lets go back to 1 yr plus when we r still friends.. I hope by making this decision it'll help u by lightening ur burden..

Pea 16:06 - Ok.. We will always be close frends..Hope when i am troubled u willin to listen. Take care yuan.

Zen 16:07 - I will still be there for u.. Promise goes on.. Take care too ting..

Think that might be the last few messages as a couple... I still have feelings for her... Just that we might have met at the wrong timing... If i were to have another chance, i will still want her to be my gf back... Just that without those disappoint... She is a gud girl by nature... So long ting...

Labels: Final decision...

As one grows up, their thinking will become more and more complex and complicated... I really admire those people who are growing old but are still innocent or kind hearted... These kind of rare spieces really are near extinct already... Everyone wants a simple life... Easy to say but hell difficult to achieve it successfully...

My friend's gf just broke up with him... Reason - for shouting at her... Although guys really shouldn't shout at girls, but from my experience i can tell you that even if you are a really understanding and kind hearted soul, there will still be one fine day where you cant take it anymore and you will finally leashed out at someone... There's a limit to one person patience... But it's just a moment of foolishness i should say... The person is the one you loved so much and cared for so much... Even if you have done something wrong, it's just a moment of foolishness which we guys should be trained to deal with...

Sometimes people quarrel becoz they are really not compatiable... Which brings me to the next topic... We cant really tell whether this guy is compatiable with this girl... Every people have different needs... This goes for relationships too... It's really difficult to find that very girl/guy that you wanted... You cant expect them to change to the ideal guy/girl you are looking for too... You can only hope or tell the person to change as days goes by... To change or not depends solely on that person... So whether you like it or not, life still have to go on even if you got the suckiest guy/ girl in the earth... If you are not happy, just tell the guy/girl that you guys wont go far since everyday is an unhappy day... Well i guess that's life... You have to try try try again till you succeed...

Tml her mum will be coming back and we will be having dinner tml... Asked her out for a movie since it's so rare tat she can have a break... Wanna spend some time wif her also la since we so long nv go out together and do things together already... I heard from my friends that a jap show "sky tower" (if i still rmb correctly) and "di yi jie" is nice... In the end totally rejection from her... Of coz i was disaapointed and sad since it might be the only day this week i can spend some time with her... Will she go if her friends will to ask her??? Anyway i wont force her also so i will watch these movies with my friends... End of story...

Labels: What are we thinking about...

This is the ultimate course that will make you grow up and change... Although the cost is one that made people think twice, but i find that it will be worth every penny you spent...

I guess the summary of it is to aim at your weak points and strengthen the weak points to make them into good points... This is to help people find their happiness and of coz to make themselves a better person overall...

I'm glad that she went for this course... After speaking with her today, i found out that the sudden change in her is surely due to tis course... Her thinking has changed and attitude better than before... She is a hard nut to crack and so i believe that if this course can make her changed, it's a damn useful and good course... haha...

I'm determined to save up $$ and join this course... Coz i have alot of weak points that i must surely improve on... If not it will be me who suffer the most...

Labels: The greatest course...

It was raining early in the morning and i'm feeling tired and lazy... But when i'm in the office, i'm working like mad... i went for my medical appointment at 11am... The fucking doctor told me to postpone the operation due to me not spraying the nasal spray... I thought the previous doctor asked me to eat the med given so i did not spray... Whatever the case is, i dont give a shit now...

I was really surprised and happy to know that she came from MDIS to simei to meet me for lunch... She clipped her hair like a bun on top and she looked cute... We had sakae sushi for lunch... After which i accompanied her to paya lebar mrt where her friend will pick her up and head for the office...

Majority of the time i asked her about work stuff... The more she talked, the more i find that she has grown up... Not the previous slacking, dont know what she want gal anymore... I am really very happy to see the change in her... Be it for the future or for the present (changing to be a better gf)... I know how it feels to study and work after that... it's really tough on her and my heart felt a sharp pain... But i think it is really time for her to learn...

Strong will... Determined... Stubborn... Never say die attitude... Must achieve the goals... Hardworking... Some of the attributes that are shinning or showing out of her... If she carries on this way, she could be the catch of my life... Lol...

I feel abit guilty when i see that she worked so hard and i'm slacking... Haha... We have swoop our roles... Just hope i will work hard after i ORD (whioch i believe i can do it)... Jia you to the both of us!!! We can do it!!!

Labels: Rainy Morning...

Majority of the human in the world tends to take things for granted most of the times... I admit I am part of these "humans" too... Humans always have the tendency to take things for granted even though how many times we were reminded...

Only when the time comes to make us realize how fortunate we are, then we will really think through what we have and what are the things we have neglected or taken granted for...

I thought that my dad has been able to pay all his bills etc, etc... But few days ago my mum told me that he is borrowing $$ from my grandpa... 20k... To pay up his HDB loans for the whole of last year... Now then i know that he dont have the $$ to pay most of his stuffs... This time round if we dont have enough $$ to pay the monthly loans (1k plus),we have to move out and get a second hand hse... The fucking problem is we still have to pay the loans even after we got the second hand hse... Damn the fucking people who thought of this rule... My dad is really looking depressed over these $ issues...

I used to think that $$ can always be earned back after you spend them but now, I am only thinking of saving as much as possible to help my dad... It really hurts me to see him deeply in trouble... My brother has been informed too and he will help to chip in too... Hope to have a part time job for the time being first...

Yesterday we had another discussion and conclusion is that we will be back together again... It's really hard to break up with her... Initially she told me to be friends first and i agreed... SHe told me she will be busy with her work and study so she might not have the time to be with me regularly... I asked her one question... "Recently i found that you are changing abit... You did that because you want to save this relationship or???" She answered:" I dont like to do things which i am being force to or dont like..." I understand what she meant and that's why i think we should give ourselves another chance...

It's because i felt the change in her... It has been such a long time since i had this feeling... It's beginning to feel better than last time... Hopefully this time round things will really be fine tuned...

Meanwhile i will still carry on to learn not to take things for granted... I must cherish everything that i have now on!!! Humans please learn too...

Labels: Humans are humans after all...